Effortless freedom

The child does not make any effort. It just does things. Sleeps wherever it wants to. Eat what it wants to eat. The child keeps in its mouth, which as adults we would never even dream of keeping.

The child is not imprisoned in its thought, in its actions. It is natural. It does not remember and recall what has passed. A child is effortless to the core.

In seeking higher love, effort is the major stumbling block. The moment I make an effort, I am strengthening my ego. Love is never an effort. I cannot make an effort to love. I have to allow it to happen.

Discipline is the essence of growing up. Do not do this. Do not do that. Do this, Do that. We hear this all through our life since childhood.

This discipline itself becomes bondage. We are imprisoned in our circumstances, in our situations. The world gives us a character and we move with this character tab.  We move with a fixed attitude.
The child has no character, no attitude. It is just happy.

So what is the difference between our response and a child’s response. For a child the response comes out of the situation. For us- we are conditioned.

I am hungry and to eat food, I have to set the table, use the cutlery, should not spill……..

For the child, takes the food and eats it… no conditioning. The situation creates the response. Hunger + Food= Response-

So awareness is the key. Awareness of the situation is the key

So How do I move freely?

How do I remain natural and free?

How do I become free?

(Writing needs a lot of effort- I am lazy. I promised my friend that I will start writing again. It has taken nearly a month to start writing again)

Experience and Borrowed Knowledge

Last week I had gone to the hospital to see a friend of mine, who was confined. She was expecting in the next few days.
There was a doctor who came to attend to her and she was narrating her problems. A thought occurred to me...
Today, I am in a pensive mood and thinking if that doctor could really understand the problem of a pregnant lady.
He must have read various books, seen various cases, but is that real understanding. No male, I think can exactly understand what a woman goes through during her pregnancy and child birth, how much ever he reads and learns.
What the women goes through is her experience. It is real and genuine for her. For the others who read it from books and who have learnt it through listening, it is borrowed knowledge.
Expanding this further, we read many works of saints and philosophical teachers on love, cosmos, god and life after death.
These are works which have been produced based on their experience. For us it is just borrowed knowledge.
Whatever they have experienced can never be expressed in words.
After reading such works, we assume that we know it and that is dangerous. Borrowed knowledge is useful only in cases where it can reproduced, tested emperically.
For the rest of the stuff, we have to experience it to understand it....

Love and Trust

While traveling this week, I met a a person on the bus. He was narrating his experiences. Getting down, I was not sure if it had happened in reality. A sense of doubt was cast inside. To overcome this doubt, I had to cultivate belief...
Then I realized that Belief and Doubt where the same energy. If I focused on doubt, my belief gets reduced and if I focused on belief my doubt gets reduced. They are two ends of the same line.
In someway by giving attention to this energy, we are feeding the energy of doubt and belief.
This is a vicious circle, I realized and how does one come out of it....
The only outlet is Trust and love.. This energy has the capacity to pull me out of the vicious circle of doubt and belief.
How do I trust- Do I trust little by little? Do I love little by little? Or should it be unconditional trust and love...?
Unconditional trust and love towards people, objects and nature surrounding me is the only solution, I concluded.
Another question struck me, In today's world of skewed distribution of resources, will I get my minimal share to sustain my life and body?
Is not saving my life and my body my duty?
With these thoughts, I read a few books to see if there are any answers:
Trust and faith is not half. It is total.
Trust is not rationalization. One should not rationalize and then trust. Then it is nothing but belief, which is just a positive attitude towards anything. The opposite is the negative attitude towards anything, which is doubt.
By just being indifferent to belief and doubt, it is possible to develop trust and love...
If you love, you just exist in a loving way. Your being becomes a love phenomenon.
Having read this, I ask myself, is this possible.... I look at my neighbor's child... the child is full of love and trust. She unsuspectingly opening her mouth for whatever is fed. She has no idea if it is poison or food.
There is complete trust.
Which means, as a child I must have been the same way. As a child I must have had all this inside me. I was created with the right material to trust and to love unconditionally.
Somewhere during the process of my growing up, people around me, have given me knowledge and many lessons which has taken the innocence out of me. These lessons have given me a job, some skills to earn a living and money to fend for myself...
But these skills have taken away my innocence, my power to love unconditionally and trust....